My Story
I'm Sarah. A mother of twin boys and an avid gardener. I love the great outdoors and spending time listening to nature's song.
From a young age, I've had an interest in the world of birth.
A few years back, I felt a calling to become a midwife. I didn't complete my training though as I started to realise that in this profession, I wouldn't be able to give that one-to-one support and complete care that I had heard as my calling.
Years went by, I went on my travels, explored some beautiful corners of this world, met some awesome people, fell in love with my husband, nature and life.
I developed a keen interest in local organic produce and pursued this further by preparing, cooking and serving nutritious and delicious goodies in small independent restaurants.
I also worked on a biodynamic organic farm in the Ashdown Forest to learn about growing food from scratch.
I had a truly magical pregnancy, felt centred, full and round and beautiful.
I experienced it as quite a sacred, spiritual time. Never before had I felt so at peace with the world surrounding me.
My body changing daily, the vessel for two new beings!
I had done all my 'homework', knew my rights and choices, felt prepared and empowered.
I was induced at 37 weeks, which I had been trying to fend off as I knew of the cascade of interventions that often follow after an induction. But I found it difficult to stay "hard' and in "fighting mode" as I was starting to feel myself go more into the primal part of birth; the one that is softer and less guarded.
It took several days from being induced for my babies to be born.
After their births, I was so exhausted and quite frankly, overwhelmed and depleted.
It must have been at least a week until I started feeling okay again.
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From my doula training and also from a very close and honest conversation with myself, I recognise just how much more care, love and support my husband and I needed in those days at the hospital and afterwards.
There was so much fear, worry, guilt and exhaustion. I had expected my partner to be my doula, not realising that he was going into the birth mode with me!
I am certain that if we had had somebody who we deeply trusted by our sides, someone who knew our fears and who could have helped us through our overwhelming emotions, we would have had a very different experience.